You know how the inner dialogue goes. I certainly do. My twenty-something years are full of journal entries scribbling it out. My ping-pong dialogue looked something like this, and I suspect yours sounds pretty dang similar:
He loves me. He must love me. I can tell he really loves me. But then why is he pulling away from me like I suddenly have the cooties?
Is it because I came on too strong? Am I too much? Too intense? Too passionate? Too threatening? Too successful?
Or am I not enough? Not pretty enough? Not smart enough? Not interesting enough? Not a good enough kisser? Not talented enough? Not funny enough?
But I feel like he thinks I’m enough. I feel like he really loves me. So maybe that’s the problem. Maybe his feelings for me are so scary that he has to pull away. Maybe I’m his soulmate and he’s just not ready to meet his soulmate yet.
Hmmm… what’s the truth? Is he truly, deeply, madly, intimately in love with me?
Or is he really just not that into me?