I have always tended to be a bit of a control freak. I’m not sure whether medical training turns doctors into control freaks, or whether control freaks are drawn to medicine. But it never felt like there was much room for being out of control in my life as a medical student or practicing physician. It’s part of why I left medicine. The further I walked on my spiritual path, the less comfortable I was controlling everything and the more I wanted to simply trust.But how? How can you surrender when someone’s life is in your hands? How can you trust when there are review boards and malpractice lawyers breathing down your neck if anything goes wrong? It almost felt like I had to leave medicine in order to embrace my spiritual path. But then… maybe this was a limiting belief.