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This post is hard for me to write because it shines light on one of the core patterns I’ve spent years in therapy and years in prayer trying to break—the Savior Complex. For those of you who are familiar with the drama triangle, you know that drama tends to erupt whenever we inhabit any of three roles—the victim, the martyr, and the perpetrator. Here’s how the triangle tends to go—someone perceives herself as the victim, and she blames the perpetrator for her plight, feeling helpless, disempowered, hurt and angry. Then the martyr swoops in to save her; only this rescuing pattern stems from pity for the victim, not true compassion. It boosts the ego of the martyr, fluffing up the martyr’s feelings of self-worth, because, at the core, the martyr doesn’t feel whole and worthy unless she’s rescuing. Over time, the martyr gives and gives until she’s depleted and then she gets resentful because she has been rescuing others at the expense of her own self-care. Then she lashes out at the victim, becoming the perpetrator to the very victim she sought to help. Or she gets sick or depressed or financially depleted, demonstrating that she has perpetrated her own body or her own mental health or her own bank account. The martyr has now become the victim.

Nobody wins. If you play any of the three roles in the drama triangle, you will inevitably play all three.

But the drama triangle is vastly different than pure service. Pure service stems from a recognition of the Oneness in all of us and emerges from compassion, not pity. It recognizes that if one cell in the human family is suffering, the whole body is at risk. It doesn’t arise from underlying feelings of unworthiness or a “not enough” wound. Pure service doesn’t judge anyone as broken or see them as inferior to you. Pure service recognizes and tends the wholeness in everyone. It arises like a rush of “Shakti” (life force energy) and leaps you out of the chair to go serve your fellow human being. Pure service serves the giver as much as the recipient of the service. It blesses the giver with the feeling of deep fulfillment which arises when you know you are being used as a vessel of Divine love in the world. Rather than depleting you and leaving you feeling resentful, pure service may even energize you, leaving you feeling even more full because the Shakti that has flowed through you to bless the service fills you at the same time that you’re serving others.This doesn’t mean you should ignore any impulse to serve others. Pure service is a beautiful and natural extension of compassion, and we need compassionate service now more than ever on this planet. Whether compassion motivates you to extend yourself in service to another person, a group of people, an endangered species, or a rainforest, pure service is how we bless life and allow it to bless us. But if you notice that you’re often motivated by this feeling that you need to save the world or everything will go to hell, or if you think giving until you’re depleted is how you get to heaven and live a moral life or if you don’t trust others to handle things themselves, you might need to pause.

This doesn’t mean you should ignore any impulse to serve others. Pure service is a beautiful and natural extension of compassion, and we need compassionate service now more than ever on this planet. Whether compassion motivates you to extend yourself in service to another person, a group of people, an endangered species, or a rainforest, pure service is how we bless life and allow it to bless us. But if you notice that you’re often motivated by this feeling that you need to save the world or everything will go to hell, or if you think giving until you’re depleted is how you get to heaven and live a moral life or if you don’t trust others to handle things themselves, you might need to pause.

What is Motivating Your Service?

If you feel yourself compelled to help, fix, or rescue, stop before you leap into automatic action. Notice when the impulse to help arises, then notice your motivation. If you’re caught up in a Savior Complex like I was, you might need to resist the urge to extend yourself outwards and take time to gaze inwards for a while. You can read more about how Martha Beck confronted me with my own Savior Complex and how you can tell the difference between a Savior Complex and pure service in “Are You a Skanky Ho?” Or read about my reaction to a group of activists committed to saving the world here.

Ask yourself, “Why do I feel compelled to help here?” See if you notice any of the following Savior Complex motivations:

  1. Feeling pity for the other
  2. Fear of disappointing someone
  3. Approval-seeking
  4. Not feeling like you’re good enough unless you’re helping
  5. An attempt to manipulate someone into liking you by making yourself indispensable
  6. Fear that you won’t be lovable unless you’re helping someone
  7. Lack of trust in the other person (Are you sending a message that says “I don’t trust that you can help yourself?”)

If your impulse stems from any of these motivations, it’s an ego-based impulse that probably won’t uplift you or the one you think you’re helping. If you notice yourself cringing when you read this, be gentle. Make sure you don’t judge or criticize yourself. Don’t traumatize the little child inside of you that just wants to feel good enough. Love her instead. Love her big and hard and tell her she’s enough, just as she is.

Love the Wounded Child

Usually, a Savior Complex stems from a desperate, scared, hurt child inside of yourself. Often, that child was programmed to have a Savior Complex, either because the parents had Savior Complexes too, or because the child grew up feeling “not enough” and has spent a lifetime trying to find a way to finally feel worthy. If you could access the pain of that hurt child, she would probably weep in your arms because she’s so frustrated that no matter how hard she tries to be worthy, her attempts to help never seem to be enough. She’ll keep giving more and more, sacrificing her own needs to even more extreme lengths, until she hits a point of burnout, despair, illness, depression, loneliness, and desperation. She doesn’t realize that all she has to do is STOP. Just stop. Rest. Go inside. Pay attention to the part of you that has been spinning her wheels desperately trying to fill the hole of that “not enough” wound.

Notice the innocence of this part of you. Think back to any messages you received growing up that taught this little child that she was not enough unless she gave until she was depleted. Remember the first time you felt like you had to sacrifice your own needs to prioritize someone else’s needs. Recognize that this child doesn’t know better. She’s doing the best she can, so the worst thing you could do is judge this part. Instead, tend to that child with extreme love, holding her in the arms of the most compassionate, nurturing, unconditional love. Reassure her that she is whole and worthy, that she doesn’t need to do anything in order to earn her worthiness, that love is not in any way conditional upon giving until you’re depleted. (For guidance with nurturing this little child, you can download the free “Inner Child Meditation” I recorded as part of the Fulfill Your Calling Kit here).

Breaking the Pattern

Healing a Savior Complex is like putting an octopus to bed. I’ve been working on this pattern for ten years, and in the beginning, all eight of the octopus arms were above the covers. Now, I maybe have six of the eight arms under the covers, but periodically, I’ll notice another arm or two coming up. Instead of judging it, I have to just be aware, be soft, be loving with myself. Laughing at yourself helps. “Oh, there she goes again!” I often giggle. Understand that if you were deeply programmed with this pattern the way I was with a family of doctors and missionaries and then twelve years of medical education, it will take time and diligence to break the pattern. You may find that you get it under control in your professional life, but then it erupts in your personal life. You’re likely to wind up in personal relationships with people who you deem as needing you. You’ll be at risk of being the lock to their key. For example, I’ve been a magnet for attracting romantic relationships with men who were abandoned by their mothers. I wind up feeling like it’s my life purpose to prove to them that unconditional love is real. But my motivations for being in those relationships aren’t always pure. I have to remind myself that it would be just as okay to fall in love with a guy who had a healthy childhood or had already healed childhood wounds in therapy. I have had to fire myself from the temptation to be that one person who can love even the most seemingly impossible to love people. It has been hard, painful work, and it has required ongoing vigilance and real surrender to Divine Will in order to navigate this kind of spiritual growth.

The Exquisite Gift of Pure Service

The reason this kind of inner work is worth it is that when you stop yourself from getting involved in drama triangles and you withdraw from anything that’s not pure service, you are blessed with the opportunity to let the Divine use you to be someone else’s miracle—and it feels fantastic! You don’t deplete yourself. You don’t feel like a martyr after serving. You’re not sick or depressed or broke or resentful afterward. You feel whole, fulfilled, and deeply grateful for the opportunity to be of service. You know that the service doesn’t even come from you—that you are the vessel that love pours through and that both the giver and the receiver are whole throughout the process and both are blessed by the interaction. You don’t get to claim credit for the service because it’s not actually you, the small self, doing the doing. It’s more like you’re being done by Something Larger, and you feel awe, not pity. As Rachel Naomi Remen writes, “Serving is Different from Helping and Fixing.”

That doesn’t mean you won’t work hard. It doesn’t mean you won’t feel tired after a full day of service. But the feeling of fulfillment will make it all worthwhile, without any harmful consequences on your self-care. What is the difference between caretaking and being of service? HeatherAsh Amara says, “Caretaking is a habit that is easy to fall into that seems benign on the surface. But the truth is when we are caretaking we are acting out of a need to be needed: we believe others can’t do it without us. Caretaking is actually more about self-importance than empowering others. The art of service comes when we deeply listen, set our own opinion aside, and open for how we can support and ignite another’s inspiration and passion.”

Let me close this by inviting you to hold a paradox. The world doesn’t need you to save it. Yet the healing of the planet depends on your natural impulse to serve. You can retire the savior without tamping down the natural love impulse to serve the wholeness in life. Realize that it’s not the small YOU that’s doing the service, that pure service arises from Love Itself using you as a vessel. You can rest in Beingness at the same time that you allow Something Larger to use you for the Doing. Therein lies the paradox that heals the Savior Complex.

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28 Comments

  1. Claire O'leary

    Another great article Lissa. I know that I too started working with others from the hurt child inside me who needed desperately to help others and feel needed. I noticed that as the years have passed and I keep loving and nurturing that child, I am finally coming from a space of compassion. It was a long time coming, but glad to find as I read your article that (most of the time) I’m coming from the right place. Those octopus arms to flail at times though don’t they. 🙂 Thanks for this I will definitely share.

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  3. Pamela Goad

    Dr. Rankin, I highly respect your work but would like to make one suggestion as I believe it would make a big difference in how some people view their diseases and heal. I am a person who has diabetes. I’m not a diabetic. My daughter is a person who has asthma. She is not an asthmatic. We have a friend who has alcoholism. He is not an alcoholic. People with heart disease are not called heartics. People with liver disease aren’t called liverics. You get the idea. When you have diabetes, asthma and/or alcoholism you may have those diseases but you don’t want to be those diseases. You want to be a person, a child, a parent, a grandparent, a law enforcement officer, a doctor, a lawyer or what ever but not the disease. When writing please refrain from using ‘ics” when describing people and just discuss the disease they have. Thank you for considering.

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    • Lissa Rankin

      Thank you Pamela. I LOVE the way you describe this. Thank you for calling me on this. You’re absolutely right.

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  4. Lisa Bradley

    I have been thinking about how the Drama Triangle and the Savior Complex may be components of the Wounded Healer archetype. I wonder if the wounded healer who has not healed herself is more prone to the savior complex, in a process similar to what Brene Brown calls “hustling for self-worth.” Could you help clarify any relationship you see between the Savior Complex and the Wounded Healer?

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    • Lissa Rankin

      I think you’re exactly accurate here Lisa. I think the wounded healer IS hustling for self-worth. I recently heard that a very disproportionate percentage of new medical students (who are mostly women these days) were abused as children. People who have survived trauma are going to medical school, where they will endure more abuse. Interesting, isn’t it?

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  5. Nina sharer

    As I began to follow this blog it has become so interesting to me. I keep reading the different weeks and am seeing so many things in myself. I see you have just began a class. Is there a still a possibility to join??

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    • Lissa Rankin

      Dear Nina,
      Email Pearl@LissaRankin.com. We’ll sneak you in 🙂 Welcome!

      Love
      Lissa

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  6. hallei amaroni

    Lissa, I loved reading your book Mind Over Medicine. One thing I would like to have heard more about in your book is how to heal the mind. I have been very frustrated by the medical system. After patients are informed of the potential risks and benefits of a treatment they should get to make their own decisions and accept the responsibility. Doctors should not be held liable if a patient wants to pursue a treatment after being informed of the risks. I should not be forced to buy insurance if I cannot choose the treatment that the insurance covers. Dr. Rankin can you offer any advice to a patient wanting to convince their doctor to prescribe a treatment? I have been trying to get my doctor to prescribe hyperbaric oxygen therapy for the anxiety depression, lack of focus and brain fog that I have been experiencing. My doctors have no problem giving me bottles of drugs for these but they won’t give me the treatment I believe would help me even though the risks are substantially less than the drugs. How can I convince them?

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    • Lissa_Rankin

      I’m afraid that just like your doctor can’t force you to do what she wants you to do, you can’t force her to violate her own ethics either. All I can suggest is that if your intuition is telling you that this is the treatment you need, find a doctor who can support your choice- and be willing to pay out of pocket. It’s not the doctor’s fault- the whole system is broken. You can make your case to the doctor, but at the end of the day, if a doctor doesn’t feel right prescribing a treatment, that doctor should not ever feel pressured to prescribe it. If something goes wrong, it’s the doctor who is liable. I’ve been in that situation, where a patient is demanding a treatment I don’t feel comfortable prescribing- and at the end of the day, the doctor has to abide by her own ethics and intuition. I can’t speak to why your doctor won’t prescribe what you want, but I would suggest you find one who is more aligned with what feels right for you…

      As for the money, well, that’s a whole other conversation. The system is out of integrity in a 1000 ways when it comes to money. We need socialized medicine- period. Every other developed country on the planet knows this simple thing but we’ve turned it into an insane political issue, when really it should just a human right. Don’t get me started!

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      • hallei amaroni

        Thanks Lissa 🙂 I know it will be okay and will be resolved somehow. Through meditation and prayer I felt it was the right answer before understanding what it was. But even if I cannot get it I hope I will be able to heal myself. I just believe it would help heal me faster in this critical time of my life when I’m in college. Thanks for helping me to see it from the doctor’s perspective! My doctor’s have not explicitly said no or yes they just have tried to push me toward other treatments. You are right. If they are not on the same page with me it is time to find another doctor or clinic. Thanks!

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    I will never stop being amazed at how things show up when you need them most. This article is EXACTLY what I need to see right now!❤️Love and light to you Lissa!

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    • Lissa_Rankin

      Oh good Carol. I”m glad it’s helpful <3

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  11. Silvija Mažuolienė

    Hello, Lissa, I loved your article and I am also trying to put Saviour Complex octopus in a bed for some years now. I am happy with were I am now but there are one or two dilemas I keep trying to solve for my self. Maybe you went through it as well and could give an idea or two. Plenty of my wish to help comes from the Complex and when I started to let it all go, I found my self with not doing much for others. I used to spend most of my time thinking how to help people, had my blog were I was writing articles to help others, even wrote a book which ended up quite good and people liked it. Eventualy I found out that all of it keeps me out of energy and I was not living my own life. I feel that not all of what I did it was only Saviour thing, but still to much for my peace of mind. So I finished it all (it took some years), stopped trying to find ways to help others and found my self living a very nice life, one of my dreams actually, building and creating what I love. But there is not much service to others, or at least that’s how it seems to me. As a spiritual person I came to believe that we should give outselves to others in a joy of service, yet I find my joy in rasing chickens and growing plants. Maybe it does some good to someone, but I am not aware of it. Some teachings say that one who gives service doesn’t always has to know it but how can I know if I am of use to someone or to life itself if I now nothing about it… I guess my main fear is to be selfish and to live the life I love while I “should” be loving a life of service to others (and be aware that I do some good 🙂 ). I know it is one of octopus legs, but maybe you could shed some light on it couse I feel a bit stuck with this. And sorry for my english, my spelling is bad in all languages, my own included 🙂

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