When most of us think of the idea of the ego, we think of words like “egotistical” or “arrogant.” What most don’t understand is that the same ego that leads people to boast,  self-inflate, name drop, and preen around with self importance can manifest as just the opposite.  When you wallow in self-doubt, act like you’re not good enough to belong, self-flagellate, or otherwise diminish yourself, that’s not humility. It’s more ego.

So what do I mean by ego?  I’m not talking about the Freudian definition that breaks your psyche into the id, ego, and superego. I’m also not talking solely about the part of you that tries to make you superior to others. I’m talking about the part of you that thinks it is separate from Oneness/The Universe/ All That Is. This illusion of separateness may lead you to believe that you’re distinct and not connected, and because of this illusion, your ego will try to make everything and everyone either “better than” or “worse than” you.

The ego has two faces of the same coin. If your ego deems you “better than,” you’ll prance around with self importance, thinking you’re all that and nobody else quite measures up. If your ego deems you “less than,” you’ll criticize yourself, diminish yourself, and convince yourself that you’re not worthy of life’s blessings or the company of those “better than” people. Neither are who you are at the root of the part of you I call your Inner Pilot Light.

How My Ego Shows Up

I know this from personal experience. For six years now, I’ve been working on becoming aware and witnessing how my ego (I call her Victoria Rochester) shows up. I’m no longer blind to much of how she shows up, but damn if the girl doesn’t still show up often! Most of the time, I’m able to gain enough distance to realize she’s not me, she’s just a part of me, and I have a choice about whether or not I let her rule my decisions. But every now and then, I fall back into old unconscious patterns and Victoria takes the drivers seat and goes on a rampage. (It’s not pretty.)

I used to think I had to kill Victoria in order to live a peaceful, joyful life. But I now realize Victoria has served me and will continue to be a part of my psyche. If I try to deny that she exists, she only gets naughtier. So instead, I try to treat her like a beloved child who misbehaves often. I keep her in check with a firm hand but a lot of self acceptance and love. I can’t beat her into submission. I have to love her into compliance.

And you’ll have to do the same with your ego.

How Does Your Ego Operate?

See if any of these thoughts sound familiar.

  • I never fit in. I’m not like the others.
  • I’m not as good as her, but I’m way better than him.
  • I don’t deserve the things I want.
  • There’s something inherently wrong with me.
  • If you want anything done right, you have to do it yourself.
  • If I don’t force what I want, it won’t happen.
  • Damn, I just accomplished this great thing! Look how special I am!
  • I don’t feel good enough to be here, so I need to prove that I belong.
  • I’m not worthy of being with that person.

You’re Special But You’re Not Special

All of these thoughts arise from the ego because they don’t acknowledge that you’re special but your not special. You’re special because you have within you a Divine spark, a little piece of God, and that makes you inherently special. And you’re not special because we all have this, which means that no spark is “better than” or “worse than” another.

Think of it. If we’re all little sparks of divinity and therefore inherently special, what would make you special enough to be not worthy, not good enough, not awesome?

It makes me think of the Marianne Williamson quote:

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Fear is always a function of your ego, both the fear that you are inadequate and the fear that you are powerful beyond measure. Trust me, your Inner Pilot Light knows better…

The Illusion of Celebrity “Specialness”

It’s weird to be in the public eye these days. People project all of this stuff onto you, and because you have a New York Times bestselling book or a public television special, they try to make you “better than” or “special.” It can feel very distancing, actually. Very lonely from the perspective of the ego.

But it’s all an illusion. I’m not “better than” those who come to see me when I speak. I’m not “worse than” the wise, beautiful mentors who guide my way.

The same is true for you. You are no “better than” or “worse than” any other living being, because we are all connected by a Matrix of Light that creates the web of our collective consciousness. You are just as essential- and no more essential- to that web than anyone else.

Step Into Your Inner Pilot Light

When you do the challenging work of learning how your ego operates, you benefit not only your life, but the lives of all you touch. You protect the planet from the unconscious, patterned way so many of us affect the world. Curbing your ego (with love) is how you help heal the planet in your own individual way.

If you’re not sure how your ego operates, try reading The Wisdom of the Enneagram, which categorizes nine personality types based on how your ego operates. I am a pretty classic Seven. Have any of you done Enneagram work? What type are you? How has working with the Enneagram affected you?

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  1. Krista

    Lissa, perhaps you should start a facebook page for Ms Rochester. Tis the perfect place for her to pontificate.

  2. Siobhan Nash

    I love that you reference the Enneagram. It’s been an important part of my personal journey for the last 3 years. I’m a classic 9, and so I often fall victim to thinking I’m nothing special. My ego (as yet unnamed!) and I have ongoing battles, but my Enneagram work has helped me tame it with gentle acceptance … most of the time. The Wisdom of the Enneagram is a wonderful book. Another great Enneagram resource is Deep Living by Roxanne Howe-Murphy, which does a great job of breaking down the components of the nine Enneagram types into a very accessible and easy to understand format.

  3. Angie

    Lissa, thank you for posting this. I’ve been feeling ‘less than’ because I can’t seem to find work and all this unemployment has left me scrambling for who I am just as I am. I have the great blessing of getting to work with fantastic spiritual guides, and this message helped me remember that I am not ‘less than’ them, but connected as a oneness. Thank you. Recently my inner wisdom told me to start reading the Wisdom of the Enneagram. I’m most likely a classic 7 as well. It has been enlightening and relieving to see it’s not me, it’s my ego. Your message was divine timing so I remember to read more today. Much love:)

  4. Ken Jaques

    Thank you for posting, I felt like you were talking directly to me 🙂

  5. jen

    Great post!

  6. Mere Dreamer

    Oh, thank you! I am so thankful to know I am not my ego. For so long she loved to say how ugly, useless, terrible, etc. that I was, and when it occurred to me that this was the same as pride it was a terrible shock. When I finally realized I have within me the same spark that inspires me so much in others, I became free of myself in so many ways. Every piece of new perspective helps me release the containment field on who I may be.

    I love the way you treat your ego as a beloved child. So helpful! I’ve tried to ignore her, but she does her best to take over my life when I do well or feel insecure.

  7. Ellen M. Gregg

    Aside from a few close friends, through a women’s weekend program we attended, I’ve never known of anyone else to name their ego! Mine is Elvira. She doesn’t have a last name, because she fancies she doesn’t need one. Elvira presents herself, oftentimes, as all that and a bag of chips, but that’s because she’s masking her Less-Than-More-Than. (Which looks remarkably like the Push-Me-Pull-Me from Dr. Doolittle.)
    Great post. Thank you. And thank you for last week’s book recommendation! I’m *loving* Tosha’s book. 🙂 Peace.

  8. Carla

    OMW.. how I needed to read this post today is uncanny.. truly inspiring, and I thank you for writing it.
    I felt it was written for me, and you are reading my thoughts.
    Continue to inspire, thank you!
    I also gain so much insight from your Daily pilot Light messages.
    Namaste, dear friend!

  9. Mindy Goldis

    Hi Lissa
    Found you through the Sacred Science movie. I have been on the holistic path for over 20 years (not an eGO reference, merely a fact) and the interview you did with Nick was great!
    Everything you say here about ego and from the email I just received from you on growing spiritually in a relationship, is all from the Torah, so I was wondering if you are Jewish, if not then perhaps you don’t know for sure and your ancestry is.
    May G-d Bless you and you continue to have the strength and perseverance to continue the work you are doing to shed light to those who are unaware that the body is a miracle from The Creator and with the proper tools, we can heal and also remain whole and Holy (being that we are a spark of the Divine and without Him, we would not exist in this earthly plane).

    • Lissa_Rankin

      No Mindy- I’m not Jewish. I was raised Methodist and now attend a Buddhist temple!

      Lovely to have you here at the blog.
      Much love

  10. Elizabeth Scala

    I LOVE it! Thank you for referring me to this one. I will keep my ego in check with your helpful hints above. I also love how you share the quote- one of my coaches shared that with me before, when she felt I might be holding back. Lately I am more and more and MORE ready to just step out, step up, and be ME! Ready or not world- here I come. Some may like, some may not- but being me will feel really, really goooood. Thanks for sharing how it is to be when you reach some bigger platforms, such as with your book and the spotlight. It is good to know there are places (like this) that we can come to for support, community, and to feel welcome and understood! Thanks so much!!!

  11. Anthony Fineran

    i’m a type five enneagram, but i think i relate more to the myers-briggs personality system, where i’m an intp. my ego is so harsh on me.. it says i am worse. it’s quite distressing when i feel as if people are in my head grinning evilly at me. i don’t even know if it’s my ego’s creation or a form of telepathy. my hope & inspiration is non-dualistic perception, which is the reality to the ego’s deceptive half-truths.

  12. Nina Dixon

    So occasionally wreaking havoc around us is not good or bad, it’s just like a growing pain that needs attention (reflection towards growth) or not (shit happens).


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